the hell is wrong with me?

so i spent practically the whole week leading up to break wanting to go home, to see my family and everything. i kept thinking how nice it would be to get back, see my friends, have some good meals, just generally relax. and now that i'm here doing exactly that, all i'm doing is thinking of going back to school. i mean, i'm having fun, and i'm very happy to not have to worry about homework for while (though it's not like i ever did before, right?), but, well, loveland is boring. there's no way to get around it. i mean, i've had fun, got to go visit jessy and mrs letson down in denver, watched brenton get a dart stuck in his back thanks to matt, got lost trying to find walmart with ted, invented a new drinking game with jim and the gang, and have seen lots of friends, but on the whole, this place is boring. i think a lot of it has to do with my lack of transportation. even if i didn't have to share the car, i still would be hesitant to use it, cuz gas is just so goddamned expensive. it's not like at school, where everyone is within walking distance, and i just have to wander down the hall to find someone to hang out with. here, it takes effort. and we all know how well effort and i get along together. which is not to say it's that horrible here. if it were summer, i would probably be fine, cuz i'd be working, so i could just get off and go hang out. plus i would have money to spend, which always helps. as is, too much of my day is spent sleeping or playing games. except when i'm bitching and moaning about my life, instead of actually doing something to alleviate my boredom. though all of this complaining has given me something to do for twenty minutes, so i guess that works, in a way.
alright, so i'm getting bored just writing this, god knows what anyone reading this is feeling, so i'm going to go to dinner now, then hopefully find something or someone to bother tonight.