skid row

i'm burning out. i can feel it, watch it happen. slowly but surely, i'm approaching the wall. little over a month left of school, and i can tell it's going to be a race, and i don't know what'll win out. hopefully i can push on, get all my work done, not fail any classes, and just get home. i only give that about a 60% chance right now. which means it's almost as likely that i'll just give up, say fuck it to the world, and basically stop caring, much as i did for the end of senior year.
maybe it's just the fact that i have a paper and a test tomorrow that i'm not ready for that is making me say all this, but i don't think that explains all of it. it's just i have a lot hitting me right now, schoolwork, personal stuff, whatever. and the weather isn't helping. it's hard to concentrate on anything when it's 80 degrees out, sunny, perfect. though even that is a bit of a cop-out, cuz it's been nice out before, and i haven't felt like this.
it really is just that i have a lot of stuff going on, and fun as most of it is- all the drinking, hanging out with friends, late night conversations with jaya- it's begining to wear on me. not to say i'm going to stop, but maybe i'll try to tone it down a little. i just have to make it a little farther, and i can relax. i can try to forget about a lot of this, move on, whatever. and, most important of all, i won't have to worry about school for three months.
i'm tired. tired of having to deal with schoolwork, tired of my roommate, tired of getting up, tired of not knowing how to deal with my personal life. i'm just tired. spring break didn't help at all, it just made it worse to come back to this stuff.
ok, maybe what i need to be doing is my work, instead of complaining about it here. if i can get through this week, i'm that much closer to the summer, and farther from the big burnout.