i'm back baby!

oh new orleans, how i've missed you. seriously, it might have been only a week, but i really missed it. it being everything- the city in general, the dorms, my classes, the stores on magazine, the weather, and of course the abundance of easily obtained alcohol. but most of all, i missed the people. i'm starting to realize that i'm now closer to some of my college friends than the people i grew up with. not to diminish my old friendships, i'm still glad to know all of them, but there's something about living in such close quarters with people that makes it easier, and almost necessary, to become good friends. i knew this would happen, at least, i had been told time and again that the friendships i made in college would be stronger than others, but i never really thought about it until recently. but while i was home, though i had lots of fun, hanging out with old friends, making a few new ones, but all of that just served to show how much i missed the people here. my friends back home will never go away- jessy and i will probably talk til we're both 100, but here, i don't know, the people know me. it's hard to describe, but it's true. i feel like my friends here are able to know me better. maybe it's cuz i've been letting myself open up more, haven't been as self-conscious. whatever the reason, the result is friendships this year that are at least as strong as any i made in the previous 18, if not more so.
probably because of this, i'm starting to think of this place as my home. i mean, i sorta was earlier, but before, it was more like colorado was home, and this was my second home. now, it's begining to feel like this is my real home, and colorado's number two. i think i'm different from most people here in thinking like this, or at least from what i can tell from talking to them. i dunno, i've just been ready to leave loveland for so long, it's hard to think of it as home anymore. at times, i'm jealous of people like jaya, who love where they're from and know they're going back there after school. but other times, i'm glad, cuz right now i don't feel attached to anything. i could go anywhere in the world and be alright i think. i might wind up back in loveland, or more probably fort collins or boulder, or i might move to new york or london or something. right now i'm just content to stay here, going to school with my friends, and i'll worry about life later.